Our Growing FamiLEE: 4 months!

With the government shut down looming - guess i have some time to blog... Hello from Melody's (favorite) Mommy! I know I'm her only mommy, so of course I'm her favorite - but she makes me feel like her favorite cause she's always so happy to see me, one of the BEST things is getting her from her crib after naps and in the morning, she smiles so BIG when she sees my face...of course i'm sure its the same for her favorite daddy too. Things are going well, we've gotten into the groove of things, there are definitely good and bad days (like the time she wouldnt go to bed after a 4am feeding- and mommy had to soothe her back to sleep for an hour), but the good outnumber the bad. M had her 4month appt yesterday...shes in the 75th percentile for height and weight, down from 85 and 80th previously, and her head is still in the 50th...thank God considering who her daddy is :P the Dr. okay-ed us on starting solids, and I've been looking forward to this day FOREVER- one step closer to getting my body back. So I was ready: read the book Super Baby Food, and had feeding supplies on hand- spoons, bowls, and cereal...but she didn't really take a liking to it. We'll give it another try tonight - I really want to start making baby food this weekend...and I hope I can keep up with it, but we'll see. Things for me are going well-I'm lucky in the grand scheme of things cause M is such a chill, SLEEPY baby. Sleepy being key - she's been sleeping through the night since she was 2 months old, so i'm lucky i'm not too sleep deprived. But managing work with taking care of a baby, a husband taking his competency exams (he PASSED) and taking care of our humble abode isn't easy. Did i mention I'm not good with change? I'm a researcher and planner by heart, i NEED to feel prepared - but with a baby 2 days are never the same. I know I'm growing and God is chanllenging me - and most days I'd like to think i've risen to the occassion. But growing, and being stretched isn't always easy. As a mom I think it's easy to feel guilty, it's a struggle to not feel selfish - checking facebook/watching tv vs. being present with my baby. I don't know where I'm really going with this - usually I'm not this honest, since I'm a pretty private person. But I just wanted to share my feelings from a mom's perspective. It's hard, but it's very much worth it.